i remembered why i stop coming on here. to many pictures of Robert Pattinson...

On the night of the 8th of August I had a dream. That dream was extravigant and beautiful and horrifying. It had magic and family love and the brutallity of humanity. The whole thing left me confused and a lil desturbed because of the slight relief I felt at the end.
The begining was me and four faerie children I was taking care of, and of course Doryn. We were all living in this amazing, extravigantly naturally formed, crystalin ice tower on a massive ice burg. I had to leave to take Doryn to s… Continue

I just found out that the one that I have been waiting for all these years no longer loves me. He's dating someone and they are in love. I deserve this though because I did the same thing to him so many times before. He stood by me for so long that I just assumed he would always love me. I should know better by now that no one can ever love me for long. My heart is broken once again. I thought I was on the mend but yet again I was proven wrong. I must be a horrible person. I hate myself right no… Continue

I can't fucking take his tantrums! He's always screaming. everyone wonders why I smoke. fucking little brat hates me. I don't know how to handle his tantrums. nothing i do calms him. he just screams and screams. when ever someone tells me they want another baby i always tell them that babies grow up and turn into monsters then they hate you. i get no help from anyone with him either. then they look at me like i'm a horrible mother. not even the father. hes such a looser. he expects me to give hi… Continue

I don't usually do quizzes on facebook but tonight I felt like doing a "what age do you look like?" quiz. Apperently I look and act like I'm thirteen! What the fuck?! No wonder I can't buy smokes without any id! Haha shit. Well at least I know I will age nicely. Maybe I really am what my friends tease me about being. Just because I don't want to get skin cancer or have my skin look like leather. My face may have not aged but I know my eyes have. I definately feel my age.

I love the thunder and lightning. It turns me on so bad. I hate not having anyone when we have a storm. I find them so completely romantic and sensual. They send my imagination wild with images of making love out in the rain, thunder roaring and lightning streaking the sky with brilliant light. Gorgous white light turning everything white along with it. Just for a split second everything becomes clear and wonderful. Makes me want to reach out and touch everything. Kiss anyone standing near. Man… Continue